Recently, I went through a bout of being in a funk. I realized I was angry at God. Fortunately, I had the tools to life to be able to work through it and move on. I was able to use the Anger Process, a love letter to God and a gratitude exercise. All of these left me with the feeling of love, so I could more fully appreciate what I do have.
Here’s how the rap was going in my head: “I’m 67 and I still don’t have the money I want to have at my age. I’ve figured out how to have a successful relationship; I’ve done all this work on myself. I teach Law of Attraction, for goodness sakes but somehow this learning seems to still be eluding me. Blah! Blah! Blah!” My bad attitude was so thick I was almost unable to feel gratitude except as a head exercise I assigned myself in an attempt to get out of and not show my funk. YUCK!
But all of a sudden when I was playing John Denver’s “Tenderly Calling” in order to drown out the sound of screaming of two of our 4 little kid neighbors, I heard the words of the song, “tenderly calling me home” and “after the tempest is over”, and I realized, “Oh, this is anger. I’m pissed at God.” And even that awareness was enough for me to start feeling better. (I was in a workshop led by John Gray of Men Are from Mars fame in around 1983 where a room full of people did an anger process at God for all our personal disappointments and the mess of the world and it was one the most freeing, loving, spiritual experiences I’ve ever had. That’s how I know God doesn’t care if I get angry. God certainly wants me to feel love but I can’t get there until the anger and all the other gunk is out of
me.)
Now I know that God doesn’t really care if I get mad at Her/Him but I do know that if I
- How Grandson EJ sees me.
express my feelings fully – anger, hurt, sadness, fears, guilt - through tools to life I can finally feel love, gratitude and freedom!
\Note: Notice how the other Grandmas picture is bent over holding her back and the difference my 10 year-old grandson sees in me! Motivation enough to stay healthy!
Click here and watch the Three Magic Secrets Movie for free – a free self-help ebook!
March 31, 2012 | Tags: anger process, love letter, tools to life
Category: feelings and emotions, personal development plan

Click Here for RSS
It also looks like you can see his little hands around your neck hugging you! So very cute!