We all go through weight gain some time in our lives. For me it entails self-hatred and shame. I know what overeating leads to besides fat because I’ve been there.
I’m not planning to go there again but I did gain a few pounds. But you know what? It’s actually ok. I think I’ve needed to learn to love my belly. The only way I was ever able to lose the weight was to love myself more and more but I think I still had a judgment based on fear and anger at my mother that I didn’t want to have a stomach like hers. I felt so powerless as a severely yelled at and criticized child, I projected my fear and hatred onto my mother’s body parts and thereby on mine. Weird, huh?
But I thought I forgave my mother and now love her without judging after these 27 years. I’ve done so much 
work on this. Well, I have but there’s a little judgment stuck in my energy like a piece of cookie stuck between my teeth. Probably old stuck energy eventually rots us just like stuff stuck in our teeth can do the same thing.
So now that my belly is a little more poochie than before and in about 6 pounds it’ll be normal size, I’m going to project feelings of love to it and for it as it goes away. I have a little more self-love to uncover and must allow myself to receive.
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March 4, 2012 | Tags: self hatred, shame, weight gain
Category: personal growth
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Maia,
I identify so well with you on the body issues. I’ve gained weight also through the years. I was always slim, but now, well, not so much anymore. I am inspired by you to focus on my body parts, all of them, and bless and love them, as they are.